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Thursday, September 25, 2008
There is a verse that keeps popping up in my life. In my mind, on KSBJ, during services,....you get the point.
It is Proverbs 3:5-6. "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths strait." I believe this is the story of the Wilsons' lives. If we could just trust in our Lord and not try to figure things out on our own our lives would be so much easier. If I wouldn't try to understand every little thing that God throws at me......and just TRUST in His word He will guide us on a strait path.
We're not sure about our paths lately. Todd is out of a job because of Ike. I quit my job the first part of August to home school Mo and be a full time wife and mom. So we are in a tight spot. We have taken advantage of benefits from FEMA but that will only go so far. I tend to let these things consume my every thought. I feel like I have to fix the problem right now instead of being STILL. Laying all of it God's hands.
Don't get me wrong,we are blessed in sooo many ways!! God kept us safe during the hurricane. Our house had minor damage and wasn't really caused by Ike but he made it worse. (a leak in the roof) A tree uprooted and took down some of our fence, falling the OPPOSITE way from our home. We were out of electricity for only 2 1/2 days. We have a home that family can take refuge in since their electricity has been off since Ike. It is going on 13 days that we have had company. It has been cramped and nerves are on edge but we really have enjoyed being with them. Todd's home and the kids have really enjoyed spending all of the extra time with him. I have too, not to mention loving the fact that Daddy's around to help more with playing, corralling, disciplining, cooking, loving, and just being here.
But there is still the nagging in my mind.....how are we going to pay our bills, will Todd find a job soon, what if some thing else happens, we're negative in the bank because we needed things during Ike and thought that we would have money to replace it....now what???!!! Do I need to go back to CFBC for a while until Todd gets on his feet?
Why can't I just lean on God and have complete faith that He's going to lead us down the strait path. Why do I continue to beleive that I have controll over our lives. Why can't I just let go and give all of my worries to God and leave them with Him. I once heard Beth Moore say that our problems maybe above our heads but they are below God's feet. Nothing is bigger than Him!! There isn't any thing that He can't handle.
So why is it so hard then?